Day 29 - Regrouping

Today, no in fact most of this week, I've been struggling to get into the method. I feel stuck. I feel like I'm on a straight running track, with the finish line so far in the distance it might as well be on another planet. This track is so straight that it signifies a constant in my life. But the constant is not something I wanted when I started this so-called 'Transformation'. Tracy Anderson told me that every 10 days when I measure myself I will be amazed, that if I followed her cardio and muscle structure routines to the letter then I would be miraculously transformed into a lovlier, more toned and slimmer version of myself. I'm currently a bit miffed because this has so far not happened to me. Yes when I measured myself after the first 10 days I seemed to have lost half an inch here and there, but since then? Nothing. No weight loss, no inch loss, and due to this lack of visual result (plus my 40th birthday celebrations involving eating lots more chocolate than is good for me) I have not budged an inch or a pound since then.

Speaking of my birthday, here is a nice picture of myself before I went out for a lovely curry with my friends from work. I was happy at the weekend but now not so much.

So for now I feel disappointed. I feel that I have either let myself down by not pushing myself as hard as I could, by not following Tracy's diet plan, by not believing in myself. So here I come in the hope of regrouping (with myself?!) and hopefully getting refocussed on the task in hand. So let me look for some positives...

Ok, so first of all I have lost 2-3 lbs since I started this journey a couple of months ago.

Second of all, I have been so busy lately that I guess I'm bound to feel tired and unmotivated, I just want to relax at the end of a hard day, not do an intense workout. This is out of my hands until I finish this busy period, by the end of next weekend hopefully.

Thirdly, what is third? I guess for a while there I was very motivated and did start to see changes in myself visually and also mentally, from the extra confidence that comes with feeling good about yourself.

Ok, so those are the good things I have learned. Now how to move forward in a positive manner and get back with the program...

So I guess my main downfall diet-wise has been chocolate the past week, I think I should forego all chocolate for 2 weeks and watch the difference. If I can do it for 2 weeks then who knows.

I need to not put pressure on myself to follow this program to the letter and not feel disappointed if I don't. So far I've only missed a small handful of workouts, nothing that's going to totally screw me up, so get over that and move on. I accept I am a busy girl and can't always do everything all the time.

I think I should also step up the cardio and twice a week aim for 45 minutes to an hour of cardio instead of the prescribed 30 minutes. I am going to do this by starting to go to Body Attack class, which is quite high energy from what I've been told, and also I could use my running machine to either run or do Tracy's treadmill workout. I've just read this paragraph and I'm not sure if this is putting too much pressure on me by placing impossible targets on myself again??? I'll have to see how this works out.

So all in all, the plan is to stress less, eat better, move more. Whoever would've thought it was that simple? People could make a fortune writing diet & fitness books on this. Oh yes that's right, they already do. I just took a while to discover these things for myself.

I think I need little reminders around the place to keep me in check. Might print out some Tracy pictures, some motivational words or other propaganda to leave in my bag, in my drawer, coat pocket etc. Little reminders.

Right, I'm even boring myself now so I shall go and put all the chocolate away, then I shall make a delicious salad for tomorrow's lunch and let's see how we go. Who is with me?

Janice.