Day 47 and a half?

I guess I'm writing this now I've come to an understanding with myself. Let me explain...

Recently, the past couple of months, I've been having trouble getting to sleep, therefore not getting enough sleep on work nights and as a consequence finding my eyes closing whilst sat at my desk at work - not good! I've tried going to bed a little earlier, no change. I've tried a can of coke to keep me awake, it worked but isn't really a long term solution! I have found out though that my under-active thyroid is being given too many drugs to balance it out - the dose I've been taking for 9 months is now too much for me to cope with, hence the unusual symptoms. So I've now changed my dose but it can take from 6 weeks to 3 or 4 months for me to feel the benefits of the new dose, so I'm stuck a little in a groove that I can't immediately see a way out of.

So, in short, I've decided to modify my TAM programme, having Tuesday and Wednesday night off from exercise each week instead of just Wednesday, and also to try to have one day during the week when I sleep in and just get up when I wake. This will all take some adjustment but I have to give it a go for my own sanity!

I saw a good quote at the weekend, which I am trying to keep in mind now...

"It's not about waiting for the storm to pass, but learning how to dance in the rain".

I don't know who said it but they're a genius. I just have to get through this, I get it now. It's not permanent, it's just a nasty phase mother nature has inflicted on me. A test. I can do tests, surely.

So that's where I'm at. I'm on an enforced day off, hence day 47 and a half, it won't be officially day 48 until the day after tomorrow.

So, sleeps gods, come get me tonight please and make me fresh for Thursday, it's gonna be a big time hot workout!!!

Janice.